[verse 1:]

It's been on every day since they cut the umbilical chord

Been on a mission since my circumcision
Destined to be hard-core
74 the year the Steelers whipped on Minnesota

July 30 was the day that mama had a soldier
My big sister older than me by four years
Fed me when I was hungry and dried up all my tears

But I was a mama's boy spoiled to the core
Fifteen years later I became X-Raided
Hard headed and don't regret it

My mama told me to chill but I ignored her when she said it
Cuz by the time I was fifteen, I felt like I was twenty
Always wanted more even though I had plenty

I was honor be ?? no matter what mama say
Kickin it with Joshua, my Terry O, and Johnny Ray
Acting crazy cuz crazy was my nature

Gangsta rituals hereditary
Sometimes its scary cuz I think I hate ya
What could I have done to get myself a better life

Go to college and have some kids after I met a wife
I'm a non believer but leave it to beaver
Cuz in the neighborhood I grew up being what ???

It wasn't nothing but a gang of ^!$$%s like me
One put in the grave, the other in the penitentiary
It wasn't nothing else to destroy except for myself

The creation of my mama's pride and joy

[Chorus: x2]


1974, The president was Nixon
The cut the umbilical chord and did the circumcision

I was eight pounds, eight ounces
A bouncing baby boy
America's nightmare, my mama's pride and joy


[Verse 2:]


Now mama I never meant to cause so much pain
Gettin suspended from school, stealing cars, and running with gangs
I only wanted to be a man but never knew how

Only if I knew then what I know now
It would be a different story you would be glorified
Treated like a queen and put up on a pedestal way high

I can't deny it, I did wrong
But mama I tried to be strong, but I didn't fit in
Didn't belong

And papa didn't stick around to keep us safe and sound
Dysfunctional family and nobody to handle me down to do whatever
Thought I was clever but I ended up

Stuck in the penitentiary with forever
And a minute don't go by that I don't reminisce about the days
Mama held me in her arms keeping me out of harms way

Can you tell me, how did mamas baby become a killer
Who turned this African into an American ^!$$%
With rage in my soul

Tearin me apart got me mad at the world with so much pain in my heart
From the start
Columbus and his boys was on a mission to destroy

Mama's pride and joy

[Chorus: x2]


[Verse 3:]


I wish my life didn't turn out the way it had
If I could only do it all again but at last
It's too late for all that coulda shoulda woulda mess

And I'm way too strong to be walkin around sad and depressed
But I get mad when I think about the way it is
And the way it was when me and my big sister was kids

Who's to blame
It's a shame
I'm so confused and deep in my soul I feel the pain

Mama it's true, I don't know where I came from
Where am I headed
When will it all be ?? instead of hectic
My childhood was non existent
My sister had to be a woman at sixteen with no $$#istance

Where was your god when my life was going down the drain
Late at night didn't you hear me calling out his name
Or was it meant for me to be a black sheep when all I wanted to be was happy
Now how hard could that be
For mama's pride and joy


[Chorus: x2]