I fell nothing $#&@ like sick despair
All this suffering !@#$ don't you care?
Heres the rope tie me up to the bed

Pull it hard break the skin take me out of my head
There's just one thing all I ask you to do
A small somethin heres my body to use

Place my soul in a box and believe
The worlds not ready
The fall misery


Count down the days that you have kept me alive
In this place only the willing survive

It's my pleasure cut with one hand
I'm the queen of the dark I command
There's just one thing all I want you to do

A small something heres my body to use
Show the world how to fear and blaspheme
Heres the rope pull it tight

Show me dark and obscene

The smoke clears and in whispering waves of self mutilation I see the dark sky fall to pieces the world is sometimes too heavy to breathe and the dead surround me like an ocean I can't recognise the reflection looking back though the mirror as if some sort of silent stranger with mean eyes and a deadly stare he sees everything are why? then with one last glimmer defiant I'm transformed into a monster a giant with no heart no limbs no desire this is not a suicide letter I just want a real close look at death touch his mattered hair as I pass him by


You slash my heart on a razors edge on the razors edge
Don't worry we'll mend it stay with me