I died in a car crash two days ago
Was unrecognizable
When they pulled me from the gears

No one's fault, no one's bottle
No one's teenage pride or throttle
Our innocence is all the worse for fears

The other walked away alive
Arms wrapped now around his wife


My lover sits, the silent eye
In a hurricane of warmth and word
My mother trembles with the sobs

Whose absence seems absurd
My sister shouts to let her see
Through the cloud of crowd surrounding me

My colleagues call for silence in my name

I died in a car crash three months ago

They burned me until I glowed
And crumbled to a fine gray sand
Now I am nothing, everywhere

Several breaths of strangers' air
And all thoughts ever written in my hand
They plant my tree out in the yard

It grows but takes the winter hard

My lover holds a knife to wrist

Says tomorrow comes, hold on a while
My mother tosses in the sheets
And dreams me holding my own child

My sister plays our homemade tapes
Laughs as tears run down her face
My office door now wears a different name


I died in a car crash four years ago
My tree drinks melted snow

Just eight feet tall a pale and fragile thing
Bee stings beaches bright vacations
Sunburnt high-school graduations

A sparrow healing from a broken wing
This year a glimpse of second chances
Tiny apples on my tree's branches


My lover hears the open wind
And crawls blinking into the sun

My mother leafs through photographs
And thinks "yes she was a lovely one"
My sister can't decide her truth

Asks aloud what I might do
In a conference hall my brief efforts engraved


I died in a car crash
A lifetime ago it seems
A decade or two or three

They've come out with a new design
Bars and bags front and behind
My fate now an impossibility

Safely packaged hurtling down
The highway hardly make a sound


My lover very much alive
Arms wrapped now around his wife