I've tried so many times to pound the words out in my head,
to perfect the things I mean. To say words left unsaid.
And each time I try I seem to come up short

of the pain I really feel, about the darkness in my core.
But you're gone. You're gone. You're gone,
and you ain't ever coming back.

So this should come as no surprise
that these things never last.


I tried to say goodbye
I thought it a thousand times
The screams ring in my head:

"goodbye."
The anger boils my blood.
And I'd rather feel the hatred then not feel a thing at all.


I told myself I'd cry
I said I'd let it out this time

To signify the mark you left
The imprint on my heart
I'm trying to be the best I can; the man I knew you were

But the strength inside is dwindling
A blessing and a curse


If I could amount to anything in this world
It would be the highest honor to have your approval
To know you look down on me, you smile and never frown

And say; "my boy has never let me down."

But if I can't be half the man you were

Just send me straight to hell
More rotten wood to burn


I failed to say goodbye
I hope actions speak louder than words
Because I never spoke at all

One more time beating a dead horse
Just knowing what I know now doesn't take away the hurt


Damn my soul
I've tried to hold my own
But all I did was fall

Damn my soul
Just damn it all
You can have what's left of me

Because there's not much left at all

These are the things I think when the world is silent

When the sun sets each night
I find myself alone
To drown in my own pity

And all my darkest fears
No one to stick beside me
I face this all alone