I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes

But every smile hides a bold-faced lie

It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes

My heros are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again


Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied

Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe


What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?


I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens

I decrease, while my symptoms increase

God what the $#&@ is wrong

You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing


All I ever wanted out of you was
Something you could never be
Now take a real good look at

What you've $#&@ing done to me

What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?


Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
Gimme any reason not to $#&@ you up

Gimme any reason why I'd need you, (*##$
Gimme any reason not to $#&@ you up


I see you in me

I keep my scars from prying eyes

Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer


Why am I so fascinated by
Bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think

You'll never understand me

What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?


$#&@!