I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude

The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless

To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away

So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored

But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works


When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned

And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom

And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them


If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down

Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found


I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships

I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away

The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored

But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works


Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me

Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness

Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again

And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life

You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise

And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you

Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you

And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth


When I go down
I lift my eyes to you
I won't look very far

Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again

To lift me up again