I am a child of eight
Reborn in the fires
Hidden scars of pain

Thoughts are out of mind
But every time they surface
A shock to the system

Sensation overload
As I become undone


In my shell
Free from pain
Buffer me

Washing me
In my shell
I will find

My own hell
In my mind


Words are empty
They can't convey
Thoughts that need expressing

So much left unsaid
Acting out
Killing time

Slipping up
Losing my mind


In my shell
Free from pain
Buffer me

Washing me
In my shell
I will find

My own hell
In my mind


I'm bursting at the seams
It's not what it seems
I'm just a child with a secret

I've seen too much for my eyes
I can't express what's on my mind
I've lost the will to even try

Flashbacks in my mind
I'm fighting an uphill climb
I've lost my will to roll the stone

Inviting in the demons
To cover up this feeling
And let my world just go to hell


If you could only see the real me
You'd probably turn in disgust

If you only knew my shame
I'd rightly earn your distrust
To think I could have laid with him

It's such a haze of memories
I finally see
I wouldn't blame you at all

If you saw me as a monster

In my shell

Free from pain
Buffer me
Washing me

In my shell
I will find
My own hell

In my mind

Mommy doesn't understand

But Daddy's there for me
Washing over