Awakened from the light
In more ways than one
Wheels in wheels in motion

Directing the course of my life
The haze of disillusion
The misery of fear

The sense it's all so senseless
The sum of my whole life


Am I the product of another's wickedness?
Am I the sum of all my crimes?
Am I a statistic in god's plan?

Am I the child with a secret?

Here in that white room

Strapped to the bed
My efforts to end this life
Was all for nothing in the end

In a remorseful state of guilt
My love came back to me
Only to find his words

Were sharp enough to kill

There I was naked and standing revealed

As I'm looking for my father's outreaching hand
I felt all the love and I saw all the light
But it wasn't my time and he cast me from sight


Why was I made to suffer?
What point could any of that serve?

Where was the love and kindness
When I needed it the most?
They say you've got to have some blind faith

It's all a part of the master plan
But take that f**ked up idealism
And shove it up your $$#


Am I the product of another's wickedness?
Am I the sum of all my crimes?

Am I a statistic of god's plan?
Am I the child with a secret?


It all leads here
To this point in my life
I'm under observation

By the doctor's eye
A path is still before me
A fork before my eyes

But which one should I choose
Between the darkness and the light