When I first saw you, I wasn't even on you,
handed me your number but I never thought to call you..
keep it G witchu, I ignored you..

til' you caught my attention and focus,
turned a man into a hopeless romantic
catching emotions, dealing with tension

so I surrendured my heart then you panicked?
manic depression kept you falling, I couldn't stand it,
the way we loved to backstab each other IDK how we managed...

saw the warning sign & i chose to look past it,
damnit, feeling asthmatic.. lungs collapsing !
steering me wrong until I crashed,

underneath your pretty smile you were laughing..
deceitful despite my passion`
magic turned into tragic.. but who cares,

when youre not there.. tried to patch it together
you wouldn't dare to admit your wrongdoings,
just gave me a blank stare when I was going through it..

and I offered you my world ! tell me what compares to a king?
just to think.. I planned to get you a wedding ring..
and give you my everything.. my queen

you were the most precious thing I've ever seen!
now I keep my colors hidden, narco.
ice cold, heart froze.

baby blue eyes but all you see is charcoal`
now you wanna work it out ? well too bad !
you're not worth it.. (*##$ look whatchu had !

I gotchu feeling breathless right,
every night i'm $#&@ing these hos left and right..
living a reckless life,

eyes opened now you're hoping I miss you even remotely,
but no I wont press rewind !
novacane love, high upon a restless flight,

making sure that I'm numb to protect my mind...
i know it hurts cuz I'm next to shine,
the lights dimming out, tryna figure out how I spent my time..

on you whether in soul, or on the phone,
your hands were in control so you played me all along..
gotchu realizing youre wrong, now that ur all alone,

had to move past the US trying to find a home...
& to whom it may concern, if you don't put your feelings first,
once the fire dies, you'll suffer through the burns..

this is greater than depression & much more than words,
it's a message to the youth, these are lessons to be learned!


it sucks that I had to learn...i'm sick of love filled with germs...
forever putting myself number one, that's my word....