When I was nine I learned survival
Taught myself not to care
I was my single good companion

Taking my comfort there
Up in my room I planned my conquests
On my own, never asked for a helping hand

No one would understand
I never asked the pair who fought below
Just in case they said no

Pity the child who has ambition
Knows what he wants to do
Knows that he'll never fit the system

Others expect him to
Pity the child who knew his parents
Saw their faults, saw their

love die before his eyes
Pity the child that wise
He never asked, did I cause your distress?

Just in case they said yes
When I was twelve my father moved out
Left with a whimper not with a shout

I didn't miss him, he made it perfectly clear
I was a fool, and probably queer
Fool that I was, I thought this would bring

Those he had left closer together
She made her move the moment he crawled away
I was the last the woman told

She never let her bed get cold
Someone moved in, I shut my door
Someone to treat her just

the same way as before
I took the road of least resistance
I had my game to play

I had the skill, and more - the hunger
Easy to get away
Pity the child with no such weapons

Do defence, no escape from the ties that bind
Always a step behind
I never called to tell her all I'd done

I was only her son
Pity the child but not forever
Not if he stays that way

He can get all he ever wanted
If he's prepared to pay
Pity instead the careless mother

What she missed, what she
lost when she let me go
And I wonder, does she know

I wouldn't call, a crazy thing to do
Just in case she said, who?