(Hook)
So many things I wanna say,
In the times that I lose hope,

Cause it seems you're so far away,
Yet I'm reminded that you're so close


(Verse)
Been really a whole year since my father passed,
Barely remember the time I last heard his laugh,

May 13th he said peace see me on other side,
Never so many times me and my brother cried,
All this school work,

I'm burnt,
I just wanna sit in hurt man I'm worked,
Feelin cursed,

These $$#ignments what's the worth,
Seems worthless,
What's the purpose?

When I'm tempted by that flirt,
And my only real job is to warn about the dirt,
And what comes after,

Aging faster man my years are burning plaster,
Man I have to do some math to,
Figure out just what would happen,

If I were to stop bein half the man I was asked to,
But to be that man I have to,
My siblings are lookin up,

My mother is thinkin of,
The son that she raised up,
I've seen my aunties and uncs,

Truly have it rough,
My grandparents lost a son,
And his woman lost her love,

I remember every flurry that I had upon you in fight night,
I always won in halo and now you've received a halo,
I cry again,

Yet I'm reminded this is see you later no not goodbye my friend

(Hook)

There's so many things I wanna say,
In the times that I lose hope,
Cause it seems you're so far away,

Yet I'm reminded that you're so close

(Verse)

Been quite awhile since you thought we'd last,
Who would've thought I'd be the one talkin last,
Bein ignored is so much for the heart to take,

I wonder if ill ever get healed of this heartbreak,
So I ask,
Why me and can my heart stand it?

Haven't I already lost trust in this planet?
Haven't I already had enough heart damage?
Why in the world would this be where my hearts planted?

I don't get it,
I've always wanted to quit it,
Bein a leader is misfit,

In a world full of followers following ungifted,
Kids with,
Mindsets we need to rid it,

I don't care if I fit in,
Homie think of the children,
Please wise up,

Rise up,
See I triumph,
From that lion,

satan sits there still lyin,
So many people dyin wow,
Cause we sittin lyin down,

Life ain't as long as so many think it,
I'm blinking,
Cause I been hurt,

Heart battered beaten till it didn't matter,
Shown that only God will be there forever after,
When they scattered you were there,

Told me not to ever fear,
All this hurt You put me through is for purpose that is ever clear,
Still been sober haven't rolled up,
All through stressin never fold up,
Through the struggle of a grown up feelin powered as a soldier,

In an army built by a King who will never fall,
Ball players got it on earth but God will forever ball,
See I fail but I get that retake,
I love God so much no speed date,
I can't exactly hear my pops,

But I know exactly what he'd say,
Keep doin you son,
The goal should never even be cake,
Yes I've been broken but because of the blood,
Every single piece can be fixed by the God above,

Jesus you are here,
When push comes to shove,
They tellin me You are far away but all I feel is Your love

(Hook)

There's so many things I wanna say,
In the times that I lose hope,
Cause it seems you're so far away,
Yet I'm reminded that you're so close