its just me (x5)

i cant help who i am

hate myself wish i can
go to hell and start again
yeah just wanna close my eyes

and die tonite
i try to fight
tha fact that its appearing  that im dealing

with a  feeling that is healing her
but really its just peeling me apart
im kneeling in the dark

while im bleeding and im scarred
this pain is eating at my heart
it really hurts so much

it hurts too much to touch
but when i cut i get a rush
so i cut until i gush cuz its a must

$#&@ this life because it sucks
but i like this Knife Called Lust
despite this fight is tuff

i just cant abide or hide
the fact that ive been lied to
by you

i dont know why i tried to 
tie you down
now im a clown

for fallin for ya 
but just go he's callin  for ya
so turn around (*##$  just leave

i cant help it its just me
but please keep trying
please im dying

i need you to cease my crying
i see  you and its  peace i find
but i need to atleast go blind

cause all i see:
black hallways deep 
i close my eyes and always sleep

i dream about my music life
i scream and shout "%#@!! Screw this life!"
it looks just like i threw this knife

into the right idea 
but at night i tear
and makeup smears

i feel i loose
ive been abused and used 
its just too cute for you too choose

so all i do is listen to 
Deuce and Truth some Jeffree Star,
Em, Dre, Pac and Colette Carr

and when they stop thats when we start
breaking hearts
it aint that hard


its just me (x6)


we all make mistakes, you gotta learn to forgive
when you learn how to love then you know how to live
to recieve you gotta give

 its a tease yes it is
but we breathe for these kids
on our knees just to give

an offering
this society is softening
we let these feelings burn away

and when we heal we run astray
its fun to say someones to blame
i hate to say im made this way

but everday i feel the same
is this real- this game?
cuz all i feel is pain

this game is just to damn insane

its just me (x6) 

(you discust me, but its just me) ahahaha

Sick with myself but i got noone else so i give it to myself its the only thing that helps
its the same thing this pain thing that keeps me from sleeping
and screaming that god i must be motha $#&@ing dreaming

and I can rest in peace and at least cease to be
i see the sickness thats in me
this is all that I can be, I cant breathe as I bleed but its just me
so i wont call myself  a playa 
cuz i dont mean to say tha

%#@! i do sometimes
its those two dumb lines
that screw my mind
and it happens oh so fast
i imaginged it would last

but its happened in the past
i just havent learned from that
but sometimes i dont understand
if this %#@! was just her plan 
her little joke to make me choke

by use of rope to slit my throat 
i bet she hopes i overdose 
on loads of !@%!e
but no i wont
i dont do drugs and i dont smoke
but am i ever sober? nope

i need a four leaf clover bro
before its really over yo
i wanna know where imma go
show me my direction
no its my conception
always in depression
i feel like shes messin 

with me
but (*##$ please
this %#@!s deep
but its  me

its just me (x6)


its cruel for you to laugh
but its true so do the math
18 lives and then i break nine
when its cake time
you just make time to hate my great mind
its a basic hate crime
but i aint tryin

"vegas take a break" fine
$#&@ that! 
cut that parrt out 
cuz im going all out 
all-a-a-alll out 
all out right now 
get loud lights out


haha mr vegas rap
nine lives, ATGE, vegas nation
fat boi productions on the beat
(yeah, and we out dawg)

 i cant help it girl, its just me i cant control it. but i do know, i love you, haha peace


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