You know the feeling when it's always just around the edges
Overwhelming sense of pressure?
On the periphery

The weight is always threatening, you know it
Could collapse your vision
Always the desperate screaming bubbling below the surface

Can you even stay in control?
Just like that night you broke before the agonising flow of memories and drowned in the flood


You never wanted it
But your wants don't mean %#@!
The grimdown


The matted %#@! encrusted fur of the beasts
The monsters wrestling inside your brain

So scared they will break out and paralyse your helpless $$#
How can you stand before this devil?
It's like an octopus that's made of tar, it's reaching out, there's suckers clinging wet to your face

And now the panic comes
You cannot speak, you cannot breathe
The grimdown's made you into it's slave


You never wanted it
But your wants don't mean %#@!

The grimdown

Can feel the contours of everything you look at

And each and everyone is painful
There is no chance for heroism, only trembling in panicked fear
No where to be safe

Desperate terror like a child crying in the dark for mother
But no answer will come
Kicking, screaming, begging, pleading

Stop snivelling, it's useless
The grimdown shows no mercy


You never wanted it
But your wants don't mean %#@!
The grimdown


The coldest feeling in the burning pit of your stomach
The onset has you locked in it's grasp

You're so pathetic, why can't you even admit it
Incapable of wiping your own arse
All along you've known you were your own worst enemy

You created the grimdown to fear
But not it's too late you are it's (*##$
You cannot change the fact the grimdown is here