[VERSE 1]


I try not to think, i would rather just act off
instinct, cause when i think, i get wrapped up in that thought
and it lingers then after the fact i'm trapped all

in the past and get caught in what happened and that causes

things from the past to haunt me, to think, i have to pause

but snap my fingers or blink, in a flash the past's gone,
my chances are slim, my limits are stacked tall,
the odds are slanted but i ain't giving in at all


i can't just slack off and admit that that's all
i can take, and that fall was the last, i stand tall

and get up again, i just keep trying, to back off
would be my own damn fault that's a line that i can't cross


but i AM lost to find me i have to ask god
if he doesn't answer my call then that's the last straw
the camel's back probably cracked a long time ago

why i keep trying though, i don't know - i don't know



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[VERSE 2]

a weakling is only as weak as his weak link

but the tree springs from the weakness of a seedling
i can't explain this feeling
its like quick sand, the more i try to escape, the more my feet sink,


my idle hands gave into the devil,
he's bringing me to my knees, he keeps swinging me on these strings

about to reach the brink with every and each thing
i think i need to re think how i see things


(*##$ing won't solve this, this is my own fault
but all i know is all of this %#@! it just snowballs
most won't tolerate this it's just so dull,

so don't bother to pick up my phone calls

its this so called depression that leaves me

feeling so bleak, negative energy keeps feeding
the stress in me, when will it end? well it beats me
it's my destiny the cycle perpetually repeats



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[VERSE 3]


am i alone in this, feeling of hopelessness?
i'm just so distant but nobody notices

i don't know if it's this world or my own sickness
i can't cope living like this, i'm so rigid


and stuck in this mindset and these shoes that i won't fit in
i know i won't fit but I won't admit it and won't give in
i'm just so addicted to drugs and i know it isn't

gonna help i'm just constantly filling the hole with them

but don't tell me you know me, that's no business

of yours, so don't criticize or me, or throw bricks in
a glass house, you're no different, you have no crutch with which
you mother$#&@ers can uphold this %#@!


if you can't take it don't dish it - dont say %#@!
if you won't listen - be prepared to reap it if you sow with it

don't speak it if you don't live it
don't believe it if you don't witness


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