My heart is heavy
But my heads not numb
I am not proud of everything I've done

Its hard to admit what I've become
But today i the first day
Of the rest of my life


I have to reconcile who I've been
With who I want to become

I'll drown the lies of my past
With the truth of my tongue
Upward forward understanding

Its been here all along
My eyes are open its been here all along
I am alive

My life is not in vain