I'm walking down in the ba!@&(t
I'm leaning on the washing machine
I'm reaching back through a hole in the wall's insulation

I'm pulling out a bottle of vodka
Replacing that with a pint of Jim Bean
I'm lying down on the floor until I feel better


It's morning and I pour myself coffee
I drink it til the kitchen stops shaking

I'm backing out of the driveway
And into creation


And the loving spirit that follows me
Watching helplessly, will always forgive me


Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me
I want to bring down all those demons who drank with me

Feasting bleed through me
On my desperation


I hide all the bottles in places
They find and confront me with pain in their eyes
And I promise that I'll make some changes


But reaching back it occurs to me
There will always be some kind of crisis for me


Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me

I want to bring back all those moments they stole from me
In my reverie
Darkening days end


Oh, I want to die alone
With my memories inside me

I want to live that life
When I could say people had faith in me
I still see that guy in my memory


Oh, I want to die alone
With my sympathy beside me

I want to bring down all those people who drank with me
Watching happily
My humiliation