I told you my secret a few weeks ago
since then nothing has changed
I had hoped it'd bring us closer together

if you know who I really am
but you dont care about me
now I know that I mean nothing to you


there is this terrible sadness inside me
I wanna scream it out

I cant bear it

day by day when I see you

I feel the thightness in my chest
a thrill goes through me more of pain than anything else
I'm afraid for a moment that my control would break

and I'd break down

Refrain:

I cant sleep, I cant eat, I cant do anything but think of you
you've been the one I truly desire but I must put a stop to that
I have to find out how you really feel about me

even if it kills me
sometimes it seems like you are upset about me
but I cant explain why I look so sad all the day


lying in my bed too weak to move
even breathing is too much effort

tears burn in my eyes but in the moment
only one thought burns in my mind
all I know is that i need to see you, to hear your voice, to feel your arms around me


at work I wear a mask of calm and control
but on the inside, well everyday it just gets worse

all the bad feelings of the morning rush over me again
when i sneak past your office and see you and feel your distance to me


I'm glad the day is almost over
I survived the day of the masquerade


Refrain:
I cant sleep, I cant eat, I cant do anything but think of you
you've been the one I truly desire but I must put a stop to that

I have to find out how you really feel about me
even if it kills me
sometimes it seems like you are upset about me

but I cant explain why I look so sad all the day