I knew it was far too late to walk out on the lake then
Halfway to the middle thawed I wasnâ??t doing all that great


Had I cut my hair short?
Had I grown my beard out long?
Had I gone to school orâ?¦?


Why do all my plans fall through?


Thereâ??s a leak in the ba!@&(t
Stupid permanent estrangement
Ca!@&(t windows need glazing

Hinges and arms need be replaced

All the way at the edge I said I think

That we should head back
What if now the ice cracked?
Think I felt it bend


We took opposite steps
Tried to even the stress

Picked a safe direction but
You never know the way the ice thins


Half-asleep in dreams where
Ceilings start collapsing
Free fall through the roof beams

Get startled back awake
Before you hit the pavement
Floor of the foundation

Water in the ba!@&(t
Bodies in the lake


Donâ??t panic I could hear you saying as I fell through
Blackness complete down waiting till my feet touched ground


At the bottom they finally did
First reaction was this is it
Next thought was just stay calm kick up

And save your phone

Because I wanted to tell you

Because I thought you should know

Because I thought it might scare you

To see me under the ice
Make you remember you cared for me
What would you do if I died?

Would you fly out for my funeral?
Get too drunk at my wake?
Would you make a scene then?

Climb in and try to resuscitate me?

I was on the ice and I was underwater

I was getting pulled out, I was in my wet clothes
Stumble on the walk back, someone stoked the fire at camp
I was by the flames trying to get my body warm

I was standing naked checking to see if my phone still worked

I will cut my hair short

Trust me, I will
I will let my beard go
Trust me, I will

I will never tempt fate
Not once, I swear
I will never trust ice

I will never trust a thing