Third; time; writing; you; a; letter,; getting; darker.; I'm; getting; worse
And; worse.; 

I; had; a; reason; for; the; writing,; but; trying; to
Exorcise; my; demons; didn't; work.; To; try; to; rid; me; of; the; worry; and; to; purge

You; out; of; wonder; for; the; future; and; the; hurt.; I; wrote; a; poem:


I'm; increasingly; aware; I've; been; painting; things; in; gray,;

I'm; increasingly; alarmed; by; the; pain,; 
I'm; increasingly; alive

To; every; cloud; up; in; the; sky,; 
I'm; increasingly; afraid; it's; going; to
Rain.; 

See,; lately; I've; hated; me; for; over-playing; pain.; For
Always; pointing; fingers; out; at; everyone; but; Who; in; fact; is; guilty; and; for

Picking; at; my; scabs; like; they; could; never; break; but; they; can; and; They; will
And; I'll; spill; like; a; leak; in; the; ba!@&(t,; a; drunk; in; the; night; choir,;
Just; slur; all; those; Words; to; make; deadbeat; that; sweet; old; refrain,;

Self-inflicting; my; pain; and; therein; lies; the; real; Shame:; I; heard; when; they
Were; picking; through; the; rubble; finding; limbs,; they; sang; hymns,; but; Now
What; of; what; I; sing?; 

The; worry,; the; wonder,; the; shortness; of

Days,; 
The; replacement; for; purpose,; 
The; things; swept; away; by

The; worry,; the; wonder,; my; slightness; of; frame,; 
The
Replacements; for; feeling,; 
The; casual; lay.; And; 
The; worst; of

The; wildlife; wears; clothes; and; can; pray; and
The; worry,; the; wonder,;
For; three; meals; a; day.; 
Only; death; unimpeded,; not; slowing; it's; pace,;

Brings; that; petty,; old; worry; and; wonder; away.