In this quiet - look for time that I bought, now what's the cost when I'm
Spending all my time in my thoughts, but I ain't lost in 'em


Hold up, let me step back and set the scene
First time I tried to spit game to you at seventeen
Talking at you awkwardly and losing my breath

Lost track of what I wanted to say to you and I left
It would be a couple years before trying that again, but this time
I wrote down what I wanted to say and practiced it (practiced it)

You were skeptical, but something rang your bell (yeah)
I heard you like confident guys, so I guess I faked it well enough


For you to get to know me, you were there when I was lonely
But you weren't quite feeling me like I was hoping (damn)
See she knows a lot of guys, there's a few she's really feeling

Some others that she listens to, and many more she deals with
So I gotta make it worth her while
Thinking of quotes, jokes, stories, things to make her smile (yeah)

She gon' make me work for it, gotta put my time in
Dealing with a diamond, I got that perfect timing


It's been a couple more years, now I'm twenty-one (uh-huh)
We're still just friends, but that's alright, it's more than what I thought I'd get
Plus a lot of my friends had dipped (oh!)

They said I talk about you too much, "they on some bull%#@!, ain't they?"
Is what she told me, she wanted to get to know me
I said I think I suffer from depression and it's killing me slowly

She was the perfect listener, whether I was drunk or sober
We started getting closer, sometimes I'd even hold her


But hold up, now my family is asking 'bout it (what?)
You gotta be $#&@ing kidding me, I told you that in confidence
Go confront you with the truth, you try to dance around it (come on)

We talked it out eventually, but now our past is clouded
I chose my words with care for a while
While we built some trust back up, recaptured that smile

I'll be the first to admit I wasn't happy without her
And my passion has extrapolated fast
But then a natural disaster came to crash


Threw everything out of whack
And you know my coping mechanism, take a step back

Suddenly, sides are picked and my decision to not commit means I'm a (*##$
And might as well have started the apocalypse
You were there to listen, and I said some %#@! I know I shouldn't

Blowing off steam, it all seemed so harmless, but was good enough for
You to run your mouth again, reignite our doubt and then
These people bringing threats to my door, trying to pound it in?


$#&@ that, nah, this (*##$ has got to go now
I raised my voice at her, then I told her get the $#&@ out

She wanted me to know she'd be waiting for me
As long as it took me to forgive her (heh)
I closed the door and that was that


Another two years passed, a lot of life happened fast
I'm twenty-seven now, I settled down, and by random chance

My thoughts drifted to her and the conversations we had
Popped into my head, memories just making me mad


How could I never see that she did this to everyone in her life?
Everything she ever told me was just her twisting the knife on someone else's promise
She said so many've been dishonest, but despite

The rising line graph of rap's hypocrisy, the craft is timeless
Might as well lie, right? Who could tell?
But you're such a good listener and I'm missing you like hell

So I got in touch with you, I guess that I forgive you
But I'm only here to give you an update about myself


She said she was glad to see me, I said likewise, no sense in telling white lies
Now keep in mind, juicy gossip is her lifeline
But she's got a problem today

See she ain't never in her life $#&@ed with a confident J
So when I'm talking to her now, I do it smoothly in code
That way she hears what I'm saying, but can't deduce what I know (nope)

Now I talk about addictions as the roof of my house
And tell her all about my ride, but the truth? It's my spouse

This change in our communication takes her aback
But I told her some things must change if I'm taking her back

"Wait - you're taking me back?" You must think I'm crazy for that
Whenever she gave me feedback, she just echoed what I said
So then we made amends, and to this day we're friends
I used to wonder why I met her for, these days it makes sense (uh-huh)
Can't get her out of my head

And honestly, I don't see her leaving, no matter how much I've said