Damn I just turned 20, feel like a soldier now
Cuz im growing bolder but my pops is getting older now
His life is almost over so im feeling like im colder

Tryin to prepare so its something I can get over how
Can I brace myself, cant even face myself
And I been judging others but I make mistakes myself

Afraid if I wanna get fixed I gotta break my self
hardest thing to do in the positions that I place myself
I been thinking that drinking can wash my stress away

But I got so drunk forgot I had my test today
If my pops knew I was failing to get away
From actual life, he'd remind me of everything he's sacrificed

And I would trade in all these bottles for another chance
And hope another try will make another man
But its only just begun