Look, I woke up without a heart beat
But I remember we was just in the car deep
Was at a light and got approached by a car thief

He pulled out but didn't ask for no car keys
A loud noise without a voice but I'm tryna
scream out %#@! is not fair

I can't tell you where I'm at or how I got here
Surrounded by all white maybe it's just cloudy
Escorted by two men who knew everything about me

Both of them so strong kept saying hold on
Feel like my souls gone naked no clothes on
I know this can't be my fate I scream WAIT!

as they drop me infront of a gate
They left no trace...
I can see my every breath like a cold day

Stood before a man with no face
he said to me...


Please don't make this any harder...

WHO THE !#@* IS YOU?


My child I'm your father...


I only got one dad!

Is that a fact to you? He left you when you was

young I brought him back to you
Your real close to heaven, few get to step in
now tell me what you've done to deserve to be let in?


Look I'm far from a christian Not big on religion
But ain't done too much wrong my entire time living

Never killed never tried too tho I been lied to
Was once suicidal never read the bible
I always been a care taker tried to nurse people

At times it back fired hurt people hurt people
Plus I never use your name in vain
But you should know everything I'm being asked to explain


I know you stole from your mothers purse


You can't count that, that was way back when!

It's still a sin


But I was ten!


You robbed people, stole
Yeah and YOU made me see jail!


But I also seen you lay your hands on a female
sold drugs to parents none of that was needed
abandenned your child, on every girl you cheated

Done wrong to people that only want the best for you
Any time you thought you were alone I was next to you


When it came to baby moms GOD you gave me the worse one!

But that was your second child Joe you shouldn't killed the first one


I ain't have a job ain't have a pot to piss in


Look I gave you a gift and you made the wrong decision
Held onto resentments even in doing business
I lead by example, I teach forgiveness your

entry can not be Gur-an-teed
not when you live with anger, envy, greed
pride, sloth, lust even gluttony

everything you shouldn't if you woulda joined my company

Look I'm only human I ain't perfect.


That I understand. When I take you out a jam
you don't even think to worship, and when you do...

you never talk about what you can do for
me it's what I can do for you?
I blessed you with health, family and wealth
with all the blessings you received you still always want help


Yeah there's been times in my life I needed help to make money
But why everything I love you manage to take from me?
Yet you stand there an question a ^!$$% that tries hard
and finds a way when you keep dealing them !#@*ED up cards!
You make mistakes like ME far as I can see

I think it's a mockery whenever rich ^!$$%s win the lottery
Gave us Busch twice God I hate to be rude
But you let skinny ^!$$%s starve give obese ^!$$%s food
THE NERVE of you telling me I don't deserve to stay here
When you gave us drugs and GUNS you put AIDS here!

Take a look at you, your actions are cold hearted
The harsh %#@! is you bring babies in the world !@$!ed
I know most my actions put me in a cell
But how you mad at me when you put me in the hell


See my child you need gratitude, maybe just a sample
I never give a person anything they can't handle
don't tell me about everything you had to go through
there's reasons for my actions even if I never showed you
Kept trying with you all you did was hurt me
still gave you chances to prove that you was worthy

and so I sat with you on a train I asked you for change
you kept calling me names. Prolly didn't notice
I was the store clerk, you put the gun to me get money for more work
my child I know you have it in you to indeed stop
this is not your final calling just a brief stop
Hope you heed my words and understand
so when I see you back you should be a better man

look at life different the next time we see each other
there be no need for talk whenever we meet each other