Dear diary please tell me what to do, everywhere i go i get bullied and abused, i got scars on my face and overweight thighs, im blind from one eye and partially paralysed, when i go out side they bully laugh and swear, sometimes even throw me out my wheel chair, i still pray and thank God for the way im formed but i think its unfair that i am deformed. a teenaged girl and im only seventeen but i feel more pain then a women over 70, sometimes i sit in my room and i cry, just dreaming of slitting my wrist till i die, my tears mean nothing cos they don't know how i feel, for anyone who reads this my name is Ella Reed, i live in flat 21 and have disabilities, this is how i feel now it's time to face another week.

(Verse 2)


Dear diary i can't take no more, i feel like throwing myself against the wall till my blood stops pumping and my heart stops beating; till my life is over and i have no more feelings, i am only human i can't take this pain, they push me and kick me and call me names, in the depths of my head i keep hearing a voice saying suicide now is my only choice, i bet my mum really feels sick when she looks at me even though she tells me i'm pretty and she loves me, now im gonna take this chance to close my eyes and sleep; sleep as in forever now i'm over gone six foot deep, i know im doing wrong but im really sorry mum but i have no choice cos i refuse to run, this diary is written by me Ella Reed, im sorry mum find my body at the bottom of the sea..


(Verse 3)

This is out to everyone who bullied Ella Reed, today the police found her body in the sea, you have ruined my life and her sisters and her brother, for you who don't know this is the voice of her mother. you have driven her into her own suicide, the girl was only seventeen bruised and paralyzed, you can never make it right with no type of redemption, the only thing i saw in my girl was perfection, i curse each and every one of you and thats a fact, no apology or guilt will ever bring her back, now she is gone and i'll never see the light, i hope it eats you alive through the night, cos you took away a life when you didn't have the right of a young teenager who lost her sight at 5, she was ill and suffered cancer from the age of 10, because of all of you.. ill never sleep in peace again..