Only god can judge me, can't be too true cause everything I did was to impress you,
& although what I may have tossed on your table was never what you wanted it cost me a fortune, both of our hearts were lost in distortion it cost me it all, only cost you a portion,
No matter what I did I was non of your concern, was handing you the world & got nothing in return,

Mismatched, but I saw it as a challenge, hoped that it could work if I tried to find the balance,
None was found, & none ever will be I searched for what felt like a life time & it killed me,
You push me, I like to live on the edge I don't mind falling I guess it's a thrill thing,

Useless, treated like a pig, you blow my house down & I keep rebuilding,

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Walking on a tight rope like it is a talent,
Still, I can't find a balance,
Need to be rescued need to be salvaged,

Still, I can't find a balance,
No equilibrium nothing but malice,
Still, I can't find a balance,

I show you my weakness I show you my palace,
Still, I can't find a balance,
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They say life's a (*##$ but it's only what you make of it, so if it's a (*##$ I'm bending over raping it,
Mathers had bad matters but he won so I'm trying to learn from him & see what I become,

Take %#@! from no one, not even friends, cause if they turn against enemies will stem,
They make it really hard when their coming onto me telling me not to do this but it's what I wanna be,
I'm just a little seed that no one wants to know, but no one waters me and I only want to grow,

So how can I succeed if I'm being restrained, I'll only grow mad cause your feeding me pain,
You make it super hard to follow my goal, when I give you my music I call it my soul,
Live on earth but can't call it my home, it's me against the world, swallow me hole,


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I've concluded today everyone loves the same, everyone loves to be loved but numbs the pains, we all hate to be played but love the games & even if we are wrong we love to blame,
Others, for our own wrong doings, I ain't exactly dumb so who ya'll fooling, (not me)
I do got problems I've never cared to list, never taken chances, too afraid to risk,

They say I've got a hole in my heart I need $$#istance but if it's not broken why would I fix it?
I'm still breathing I still see drama still have feelings still feel trauma,
Momma, I've always loved you the most tried to show dad I'm live but his son is a ghost,

People cheap shot me to even the score so the odds are against as I'm leaving the floor

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