I had a dream today I was thrown away like garbage
and every word I said came out like trash
as I poured my heart

my blood
my mind
my life out from behind locked doors

it was smashed

rejection

rejection out of fear
see my eyes
I'm addicted to hell

and around every corner what you wanna do but dream of solutions
rejection
rejection year by year

addicted to depression
can't you tell
and I dream of stepping up and breaking out

but what a delusion

I had a dream last night you told me I was worthless

well not long ago I felt like I could be anything but that
you said
I don't care what you thought you saw or what you thought you heard before

you said
nothing is supposed to last
I'll make sure it stays like that


rejection
rejection out of fear

see my eyes
I'm addicted to hell
and around every corner what you wanna do but dream of solutions

rejection
rejection year by year
addicted to depression

can't you tell
I dream of stepping up and breaking out
I need a solution

nightmare of rejection

I lost my home

I lost my band
I lost my lover
my best friend

and I don't think my life will ever be the same again

they tell me that tomorrow I won't care, the wounds will heal

but now my life's a scar at best
more like a scab on a bat on my chest
there's not much in this world that gives me joy without a lie

and when the joy in life is gone for good I won't stay here just to cry
secretly I'm going to the most distant forest I can find
with a lot of pills and vodka, because after all this life is mine

I've thought about the hopes and plans my heart lived for in stronger days
and if it matters that I've done these things before I've gone away
will I look back at this world with regret?

no, I will cease to be, and you won't find my body
so you can forget
you can forget

you can just forget