I gave my things away.
I called the people that I only see on holidays.
This next year's gonna burn a hole in me.


I spent my weekdays in my car
and the weekends drinking hard enough for two.

I think I'll settle down one of these days
'til I catch my breath.
I feel the weight of the world on my back.

But I'm not feeling sick today.

Cause I laid awake in bed,

and thought of better times.
I never wanna sleep,
cause I found apathy

and laying down and never waking up.

I learned a lot today.

Cause there's a reason why I'll never live the easy way.
I'm trying to be real.
I wrote down words inside my arm

that say I'll never walk alone cause I get tired.
I know I have my friends in every way.
So I caught my breath

and for the first time I found what I'm looking for.

Cause I laid awake in bed,

and thought of better times.
I never wanna sleep,
cause I found apathy

and laying down and never waking up.

Yeah I went down.

Yeah I found the way
in the city where my father was born
I had a dream I moved out west.

I finally found out what I wanted to be,
so I picked up where I left.
And I waited two more years,

I covered up my ears.
I think I'm ready to sing this time.