i stand back and smile
just thinking to myself
if only i had made some better choices in the past


i spent my life
admiring the wrong people

behind locked doors
i spend my time
investing in the dreams that would

stay as they were

did you know that i was so full of life?

i would have done anything to make you proud
i didn't think that i would fail at these things
i just wanted you to see me in this light


i stand back and smile
just thinking to myself

if only i had made some better choices in the past
i'll be okay
it's all because of me

if only you could see myself in the way that i see you

i walk away

whenever i lose sight of who
i used to be
because i spend

my time investing in a love
that will never fade


did you know that i will never ask for much?
i would have done anything to make you smile
i didn't think that i would make you feel the opposite

i just wanted you to see me before anything else

you don't realize

that you often pull away
from everything i try to give you from my beating heart
but it's okay

it's only my fault
for thinking i deserved something that exists in my dreams


i stand back and smile
just thinking out loud
if only i had made some better choices in the past

i'll be okay
it's all because of me
if only you could see myself in the way that i see you


you turned away
when i was standing there

if only i had made some better choices in the past
you'd still be here
i'll always take the blame

for thinking you would see myself in the way that i see you