Why do I try - sometimes I need reasons
For leaving songs after I stop breathing
Long after I'm gone - what greater gift will be there

If I struggle, if I dig deep, go every night without
Sleep
Torturin' myself till I give every piece away and

There's nothing left.

Till I don't wanna talk, I don't wanna $#&@

I just wanna shoot up into space where I can blow up
Into pieces that float into nowhere - I wanna go there
Where I won't know care, where I won't know existence

Resistance, for an instance, for a moment
We can fight but every moment will always be lost.


I can't believe what you're sayin' now

Nothing is real except for pain now

Life is a deal I never made now
Tossed into skin - I need a way out
I had to blow my brains out


No matter how we spend our time
Every tick of the clock counting down

We lose our minds trying to find a way
To make it all stop - climbing for years
Out of fear that we won't reach the top

My hands are numb and I need to just drop

I can't believe what you're sayin' now

Nothing is real except for pain now
Life is a deal I never made now
Tossed into skin - I need a way out

I had to blow my brains out

I need a way out