rookie
i never thought this could be me
i guess you never do until it's happening to you

like all the fun turns into shame
and all the "could have beens" rearrange
so little time so many crimes guilt like a chain chokes my will

away
redemption never seemed so cruel
and all my gods never seemed so weak

wake up engage now derailed and enraged it used to be so easy
get up i'm game now sick and i'm tame counting cost with lost
where is the hope they gave

don't think that i can't hear you laugh
i used to be a lot like you but now i'm only me
drink to pills to shots turns into shock

a habit and a pawn
for every hand goes round the pain gets so damned loud
the hammer hits and i'm down

trust no one
hey why should i they gave
me the poison dressed like life

cheated smacked up and diseased cry to sleep and fight to eat
used to be a pro at this
now I've broken my own wrist

rotten teeth and life unsung you'll forget me when I'm go