It began sometime last week
the feeling that most everything was changing
for the worse

All the triggers pulled at once
so begins my ugly fall from grace again
I made myself dilusional

a noble stab at staying upbeat
but it was only for a while
I tried my best to radiate

through hurricanes and double eights
the pair split into two


I'm talking points I'm up on high
watch me walk the ledge
I am comfortable out here by myself

you could never reach me here
words distorted in the wind
landed softly there beneath the trees

our trip to California
don't say I did'nt try to warn ya
put down the cell phone

and try to be with me
did you see me disappear?
like vapor rolling through the hills

and then the silence of your name
I never found the trust I needed
from you

everything you did was making me
wonder my biggest mistake was
taking you back again and again

I could'nt forgive the things that
you did I'm glad it worked out for you
but your only foolin' yourself if you

think you won't do it again and again

sad attempt at poetry

sad attempt at happiness
the sadness of reality
I'm okay I've been okay I stay okay

I took the bullets from the cardboard
tossed them in my backpack
placed a set of keys inside the grill

I locked the title to the house
inside the piano bench
and my lawyers got the will

I never found the trust I needed from you
everything you did was making me wonder
my biggest mistake was taking you back

again and again
I couldn't forgive the things that you did
I'm glad it worked out for you

but your only fooling yourself
if you think you won't do it
again and again