I thought it was so much more, a way for me to breathe,
in the face of a world that I would never survive. And if
I could only touch it again, if I could feel that way

forever, nothing could hurt me, nothing could bring me
down. Take my pain, take it all away, let me live in this
world without fear. That is what I was promised. And I

thought it was so much more, but it never gave me a
$#&@ing thing, except wasted breathes and cracked up
schemes, eating away at my $#&@ing dreams. Spent so much

time looking for the answer and I never had to look at
all. What a waste of life, on a $#&@ing lie. Chemically
induced laughter is so much sadder than anything this

life could ever deal, and I'm not going to waste one more
minute, on living lies under freedom's disguise.