What the $#&@ was wrong with me?
I practically branded you evil,
A locust infecting my heart.

You were never that.
You were always good.
You are the best of us.

The best in me.
I'm so sorry.
I just hope you know I regret it.

I regret it all.
Every single word and mistreatment.
I contradicted myself,

Then I proved that contradiction wrong.
These mistakes pile up over our sky.
Even worse, I claimed you never cared.

I was among shadows,
Positive that I was shining.
Now, even I can't look me in the eyes.

I've never felt so contrite.
I deserve nothing but the worst
And it's killing me.


I wrote a thousand words all for your name,
And I never admitted I'm to blame.

My reasons became an ill lifestyle.
I need you, for I love you.
I am not begging for forgiveness.

Only trying to make you understand.

Why can't the world ever be on our side?

I swear, I never meant to hide.

I'd understand if you walked away so easily.

Why couldn't I control myself?
You deserve a friend.
Why I couldn't I act like one?

I vow that I will end this.
It does matter, because I've always cared.


I've always said,
"You can't change the world, unless you leave it."
How foolish of me.

My patience has never bested me.
Oh, my acrimony.


I take it all back.
All for you.
You are the best of us.

The best in me.
Without you, I'd be dead.
I'm so sorry.

I just hope you finally understand.