falling off of restless mountains
seems so easy at least so hard to hold
losin' letters, more reminders

more reminders that you're getting too old

i've been writing, words so frightening

i've been laying on my back so i can read
hating, faking
i've been laying on my back so i can read


this hell i am, this pain i need
all in this hell i am, this pain i need


so if you'd seen it now and
know you'd never know me well

how i'd never understand it
this hell i am, this pain i need, this simple joy
all in this hell i am, this pain i need