What am I waiting for
What do I hope to find
Lying here inside my mind

So much scattered energy
Falling in between
Focusing on how I hurt

Introvert

I search my heart I search my soul

A bust without console
I search the ground I search for more
I just can't find the door

I can't decide I can't control
I lost control
I have no faith I have no goal

I have nothing
Nothing to explore


Paralyzed from the neck up
No twinkle in my eye
And I have no devotion

No chills down my spine
Paralyzed but in slow motion
Like a zombie

I keep on moving round and round
Making sure I can't be found


Panic rising from inside
Adrenaline set in
Still I won't move an inch

The world outside passes me by
With the blinding speed of light
Captured ghosts on retinas

Fading out

I never laugh I never feel

It's hard to conceal
I never hurt I never heal
What is fake, what's for real

I don't believe I believe
I would've never believed
I would never believe again

I don't believe this
Believe me I never would've believed
You'd believe me if I told you how

If I told you how I feel

Paralyzed from the neck up

No twinkle in my eye
And I show no emotion
No tears fall at goodbye

Paralyzed like from some potion
I'm gripped by this stunning notion
A sensation so profound

I cannot make a sound

Apathy spreads fast through me

Like gangrene dark and cold
Life and death entangled
Infection growing sore

We all know the outcome
From that struggle in the past
So what am I waiting for