Mostly i am hoping
That I will end up floating

Because my only way of coping is
Smoking
And snorting

And popping
My brain and soul are rotten
I promised no more toxins

But I can't seem to stop it
Alone and nauseous
And rocking

Back and forth
Between
Darling please save me from my dreams

Im the devil in the flesh
For your touch I only fiend
I am broken

Please don't leave
I promise I can kick it
Just don't tear away from me

This mix of love and ecstasy
Your loving skin pressed to me
This destiny

Infectiously
You put a hex on me
But you left me all alone

In the dark
In the cold
Where the winds cut deep into my bones

So to cope
I have chosen overdose
An elixir

Some twisted mixture of my favorite mistress
And sip it
Just to close the distance

Maybe then you'll get it
That this %#@! is everything I've invested in it
This holds the keys to my love and existence

This