I wasn't expecting you
you took me by surprise
and I don't know if you can see it

but it's right behind my eyes
the answer to a question
that I didn't know I'd asked

and you know
I didn't believe the tides
could wash over me so fast


and I've never
seen this before

and I've seen so much
oh god I wonder what it takes
to understand happiness


and I
am standing on the edge

and I'm not afraid to fall
I'm not dying
I'm not hiding

I am not anything at all
but this time


I choose to be happy

you know I never believed

that I could have something good

didn't think that it was possible

didn't think I could
but now I'm kicking down these walls
and you're tearing at these chains

and I am starting to believe
that I must be insane


cause I've
never seen you before
and I've seen so much

oh god I wonder what it takes
to understand happiness


and I
am standing on the edge
and I'm not afraid to fall


I'm not dying
I'm not hiding

I am not anything at all
but falling


and I don't care where I land
I'm falling
and now I feel like I can stand


cause this time
I choose to be