how bout getting off these antibiotics
how bout stopping eating when I'm full up
how bout them transparent dangling carrots

how bout that ever elusive kudo

thank you india

thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty

thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence


how bout me not blaming you for everything
how bout me enjoying the moment for once
how bout how good it feels to finally forgive you

how bout grieving it all one at a time

thank you india

thank you terror
thank you disillusionment
thank you frailty

thank you consequence
thank you thank you silence


the moment I let go of it was the moment
I got more than I could handle
the moment I jumped off of it

was the moment I touched down

how bout no longer being !@%@ic

how bout remembering your divinity
how bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out
how bout not equating death with stopping


thank you india
thank you providence

thank you disillusionment
thank you nothingness
thank you clarity

thank you thank you silence