my skeleton is giving way
to this chilling cold
my heart is turning $#&@ing stone

I might just sink with it
I need a valid reason to keep moving on
past all the bullets all the shots

all the failed attempts to tear down the walls;
reconstruct the frame


I swear I've lost my mind
I've torn my skin a thousand times
I swear I'm doing fine

I had a heart of gold
so easily bent
so easily broken

so I won't apologize for being so outspoken

I can't go back home, I've been away for so long

that all the rats started to crawl out of the walls
into my bedroom
then into my bones

I made friends with the ghosts here
but I still feel alone
(i still feel alone, i still feel alone)


I feel it in my $#&@ing bones


I wish I'd thought to build a boat before I went around burning every bridge ever built towards me
I've broken every hand that's reached out to me
leave me alone

leave me alone

don't $#&@ing act like this is poetic

or beautiful
it's not
don't romanticize the thought

don't romanticize the thought

it's 5 am and I'm fighting the apocalypse inside my head

and I've got pills that know better lullabies than my own mother does
like maybe I'll be fine


I can't go back home, I've been away for so long
that all the rats started to crawl out of the walls
into my bedroom

then into my bones
I made friends with the ghosts here
but I still feel alone

(i still feel alone, i still feel alone)