And it's been awhile since i could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since i first saw you
And it's been awhile since i could stand on my own two feet again

And it's been awhile since i could call you

And everything i can't remember

As $#&@ed up as it all may seem
The consequences that i've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means


It's been awhile since i can say that i wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile since i can say i love myself as well and

And it's been awhile since i've gone and $#&@ed things up
Just like i always do
And it's been awhile but all that $%&^x seems to disappear when i'm with you


And everything i can't remember
As $#&@ed up as it all may seem

The consequences that i've rendered
I've gone and $#&@ed things up again


Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day


And it's been awhile since i could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile since i said "i'm sorry"

And it's been awhile since i've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile but i can still remember just the way you taste


And everything i can't remember
As $#&@ed up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me


And it's been awhile since i could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile since i said "i'm sorry"