I knew that I was saved
But I constantly felt
A disconnection; a hollow whole

A sinner's life that I embraced
Walking on my own path
Instead of the Way of God

Weakened state of being I fell
Into the abyss of sex and !@$^
The cyber net and all it's trappings

Pictures danced on the screen
But the light of God shone through
Exposing my hypocrisy

Hiding behind "Once saved, always saved."
Satisfying my selfish urges
Perverse sexual acts I played out

Abomination of all that is holy
Christ will never forsake me
It was I who forsook Him

Shame now envelopes me
Forgive me oh Lord forgive
My conscience is tortured [8x]

All the guilt
Wears me down
Throughout me

Self Hatred
Will I see
God's glory

Will I fall
Into Hell
All the guilt

Wears me down
Throughout me
Self hatred

Calling on
God's mercy
Save this lost

Soul I beg
Fighting myself I loose
Battle within

Raging inside my soul
Begging to be set free