Am I an amnesiac or a haemophilliac
Or is this a heart attack?
That burns the holes in these lips

That shelters and stings
That blankets then burns
That hurts and heals

To truth, to sadness
To the the
I devote

Of an increase in heartblood
To varnish and veneer
Against their words that smear and snarl

I commemorate
I instigate
I must not fake

The this then why if how and
Being seeing feeling learning
Crying, silenced soul of tears and fears that fall to stand

That fall to stand
And how I remember
And how I wish to forget

And how I wish to forget
And how I wish to forget
Shopping in the real world

It could be you
It could be you
What makes you different makes you beautiful

And what you want is what you get, get, get
As you suck in the headlights
Of Lithium, Prozac, !#!^, Zispin, Temazepam

Diazepam, Animal nitrate, Valium, Cocaine, Propane
Novocaine, Methadone metronomes to absolve your sins
Speak on Oprah, Springer, Lake, Kilroy

The time the place
This time the place
It'll be okay

It'll be safe
So find yourself another couch babe
And you'll get through

So I bottle your mind
With verbs that find
Their place in nouns

Of laced narcotic
Underground
Character disdenied and undesigned

Of soul declined
I bottle your mind
To commemorate

The pain, the memory, the dawning
Into now
So know and how I desecrate to educate

To emancipate the chains
The eyes that split my vision
The voices that stammered my tongue

Yet now I speak
Yet now I speak
In this war of attrition

This heartraged mission
This restricted code of breaking
Breaking recognition

Am I an amnesiac or a haemophilliac
Or is this a heart attack?