Forget getting my hopes up I'm doped up
and all I can say to my friends is so what
I know one day I might overdose from poppin pills

or sniffin and killed drop my steel while I'm laying down I feel
trapped inside u don't understand or see hold my hand
the worlds fallin down on me best friends dead n no beer in my can

when will it stop, hip hop is my escape from real life &
real knifes n real guns I'm real young 25 gotta roll the dice
Score six or $#&@ed,


Listen to me when I say, I can stand up n
when I start the day I really do want to get up

but the clouds make me feel like hell
and Zoe the girl 4 who I stand up made me fell
in my dreams is when I wake up

in my mashed mind I'm lost I break up
but in the final test I can and will be the one who finish tall


Dreams, Goals
checks, folds
we all dyin to be successful

Stressful to the means
where nightmares come to replace our dreams
and where fears occur

and I'm so scared of seeing failure
My sight is blocked to disappointment and bad thoughts
obstacles appear impossible so

to not even bother to try
seems to me to be the solution most optimal and logical


I'm so sick of getting hopes up
when I'm too busy getting doped up
I fail to see success in me

and just let the worst get the best of me
and its like when I get high, I get so $#&@ing low
and tell myself I'm worthless and pitiful

and that's when it came to me
can't go around blaming me
for things I can't control

I must be my friend and help myself up
I'm the only shoulder I have to lean on
So let me rest my head for minute and continue to dream on


Every day lookin over my shoulda wonder whens gonna be my time
the bible says one day we all going die.

but baz ain't ready to say his goodbyes
too many times thought of suicide,
but then I thought about who would cry

thought about hurting my mother,
all my pain, but I realized nobody's to blame
and all I can do is beg god and I'm wishin,

that he can bring all the strength n the baz back that's gone missin

This girl I met just 17 years old

daddy took "his" side an mommy went cold
all she can do is dance roll n brew up just to get low
frustrated, all she wants to do is cry

its ok baby girl dry your eyes
I know its not fair why he had to n me
getting drunk and high it won't help I can't lie

the pain you carry inside it will neva die
don't do it to yourself baby its alright
put your guard down girl lemme by your side

I'm here for you theres no need to hide
you gotta be strong and keep our good feelings alive
I know it's hard girl but you have me at your side

come on now girl and take my hand
lets overcome this feeling of me n you sinking in the sand


I can't lie for the fact,
that all I have, is a dream so $#&@ed it will make you sad,
if all I had was one right girl,

not some (*##$ that makes me hurl.
I lost my chance in love,
I have to just wait for the above,

to send me high up in to the sky,
I don't want the world to cry. when I say good bye,
all I wanted was that special some one,
but now I sit at home 119s so lonesome,
I just don't want my kids to to see,

the pain I feel inside of me
To be continued until I'm finally free and hurt is history