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JAKE MILLER lyrics : "Steven"

Look
Let me tell you bout a kid named Steven
He's slowly running out of things to believe in

Every couple of months his mom leaves him
For no good reason his step dad beats him
Not too many friends, only ever had a few of them

But recently they don't want anything to do with him
Always eating lunch in the bathroom stall
He just wants to feel normal and be cool again

Yea
Always feeling like the outcast
He's been going crazy ever since his dad passed

He needs guidance and advice but instead
He only has break downs and flash backs
Of the car crash

Uh
It's been getting harder every day
If he was still around everything will be okay

'Cause his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel
But now the same damn tunnels looking dark and gray
He keeps quiet in the back of the class

And when the bell rings Steven hurries home fast
He's scared to death that the other kids will kick his $$#
On the long walk home 'cause its happened in the past

So
He's getting used to the black eyes and fat lips
But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists

Wishin he can walk right up to 'em
Show 'em the scars and say look
You're the reason that I've done this

And maybe you'll finally understand
And go back to how it was before It all began
But he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat him yeah

It's all just fun and games, they don't give a damn
Yea
His older brother ain't around

In and out in jail, hanging with the wrong crowd
He's been doing !@%!e, smoking weed, getting drunk
All his life is a shame, no he's not too proud

Now what's happened to him
Rubbin off on his little bro, yeah
But guess what, little did he know

That every time he did a line, every time he lit a joint
Every time he took a shot, he was at the mode
So Steven sitting in his room, getting high now

Doors locked, music up with the lights out
He just takes another toke 'till the room fills with smoke
5-6-7 hours till he knocks out

Now he's started stealin pills from his mom
8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
And maybe for the moment all his problems seem to fade

But the high fades too, after not too long
And that's when it really sinks in
That's when it hits him

That these god damn drugs wont fix him
Curled up on the floor, can't take it anymore
Now it's talking to God, 'cause He's the only one that gets him

On his knees, looking up, can't stop crying
God I know we haven't talked in a long time
But it's time I really need you, please God help me

Say something just give me a sign 'cause now I'm falling apart
And now I don't think that I can do it
Please God give me the strength to pull through it

Tell me should I give up, I could end it all right now
I just don't know if Im brave enough to do it
'Cause there's gotta be a better way than suicide

Trying to wait it out, give it time, youll be fine
But it's been so long
And I still haven't been able to get rid of all the thoughts that i feel inside

So sick, so angry, so mad
And to top it off, no one even knows that
Thats when he stood up, wiped his tears

walked over to his desk and got a pen and a notepad
He just couldn't see it getting any better
So on a cold dark night in December

Steven knew exactly what he had to do
But first he sat down and wrote a couple letters
One to his stepdad, one to his mother
Couple to the kids at school, one to his brother
Bringing them the pain that they once brought him

Tear drops on the paper, one after another
Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty
'Cause I'm broken now and you can't heal me
And now you're all an accomplice of murder
Each and every one of you have chipped in to kill me

So the reason that I'm writing you this evening
Is to say goodbye and tell you that I'm leavin
But don't hold you breath 'cause I ain't never coming back
Sincerely yours, Steven

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