[verse 1: j. cole]
look, i just shed tears homie and now i ain't to proud to admit it
just seen my father for the first time in a minute

and when i say a minute i mean years man
damn, a whale could have swam in them tears fam
cause as i left him i reflected on my younger days

when it was just me and my brother and my mother played
father, cause no other man bothered
not even my biological, it never seemed logical

but i accepted it cause i ain't know no better
thought i was brighter than a polo sweater
no pops was like martin with no coretta

so many things you could have told me
and saved me the trouble or lettin' my mistakes show me
i feel like you barely know me

and that's a shame cause our last name is the same
that blood type flowin' through our veins is the same
my mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame

but that's no excuse, only you and god know the truth
and why you only gone monthly, barely ever saw me
spend some summer's with you and played with my cousin maury

maybe i should be tellin' you $#&@ you cause you selfish
but i want a father so bad, i can't help it


i break down, i break down
can't help but break down


[verse 2: j. cole]
i never thought i'd see my mama on that %#@! man
it's $#&@in' with her body, now she sit down

i wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool
who would have ever thought that it would come to this, man?
quicksand is what this life feel like