when I was 16
she instilled a sense of feeling in my heart,
in my heart


since then I had been
failing to just ask her something if we can start,

but we stayed apart

I felt so hard to stay

mute yet smiled anyway I looked bizzare,
I looked bizzare


finally came the day
the time she must go away in her car,
so long so far


I felt like leaving my place row downtown
and staying out there

and felt like employing techniques to overcome
attempting many methods brutally to break a signal
of my heart..



Then I turned20

restored and attained certainity off her mark
off her mark


I felt so empty
inside me loosing energy lived in dark,
I lived in dark


Bravo! then one day
i have seen her driving her car through its glass

through its glass

and also someone

sitting in it right next to her went across
they went across


I have been never a pervert having minor feelings of lust
controlled all my fantasies never tried to flirt
shooting slugs in the open air I

just have no sense of thurst
aiming far....