I know you've been there / moments of terror and crazy
thoughts / when all you want is sleep
You try to shake them / with twenty pages of words that

don't / say half of what you mean
They're selling everything I love / they're selling
everything I love

Sometimes, I don't know,
it's like I get so
behind, I just go

?oh oh well?$#&@ it all.?
Days when my alarm
kicks in like a bomb

and I'm up in arms again.
Not again.
I know enough to / mimic the right moves, the wink and

nod / the smile and dodge
It helps convince them / that these foundations of
middle class privilege that I have been given are solid

as buildings
I'm solid as buildings
And selling everything I love / I'm killing anything

that moves
Sometimes, I don't know,
it's like I get so

behind, I just go
?oh oh well?$#&@ it all.?
Days when my alarm

kicks in like a bomb
and I'm up in arms again.
Not again.

Oh god / I'm not / prepared for this.