spent my adolescence on a park bench
Half-drenched, free-styling with my dumb friends
Spent last year sleeping with strangers and

It was easy pickings because I'm nearly famous
Now I'm innovating, yeah I been in changing
The motif in me, now I'm [?]

And it's irritating the way my mother raised me
Without discipline but listening-I love that lady
Don't you say a word about her, yeah I'm $#&@ing proud

If my dad stuck around
Probably wouldn't be up here now
Hop into another crowd, 'nother city, 'nother round

'Nother flight connect to make a record 'til the fun is out
'Til the hungers out
And you never know

If that day ever comes, pray that I can let it go
But I was 10 when I first time I picked up a pen and wrote
So arthritis is the only time id ever slow

Done my fair share of stupid things
[?] into tears and won too many beauty queens
Now I'm in the room staring at computer screens

Hiding from the world, I am not a human being
Wayne said that I tend to agree
Got this drink in my cup just to get through the week

They just want to get through to me
I tell them hell no, guess I'm just too [?]
[?] university because I went and packed it in

This rap %#@! better have a happy end
This rap %#@! better have a happy end


Life is a maze, forget the I-n-g
It's time to free all the demons that hide in me
Life sucks and I think what am I in it for?

I should really leave, I can't stand a minute more
The girl I love to death, she went and $#&@ed me over
She always hurts me, doesn't matter if shes drunk or sober

Like, I don't think ill ever love again
Heartbreak hotel is always where I'm checking in
I used to throw touchdowns in the end zone

Now if they get to close, I throw them in the friend-zone
To think someone cares about me I say 'no way'
So I just put on a smile and say I'm okay

But really, my thoughts are eating me alive
Because I see the wrong in what everyone sees is right
And some fans was telling me I went and saved a life

I just wish I took my own advice and made it right
I'm in a vicious cycle, can't even see my friends
I'm back to square one, talking to this beat again

I'm stuck in the middle, I can't turn left or right
Cause when %#@! goes down, you're the one that's left alright
And I'm the one here, always the one who's breaking down

I'm praying you tell me 'it's alright' but you don't make a sound
Now I should really focus on me and my $#&@ing music
But I've had enough of this, so watch me $#&@ing lose it

You played me all along, I know that you adored him
You just showed your cards, I'm hoping you go all in
I know you got that $#&@ing line

I know ill be alright, just give me $#&@ing time
It just sucks that I had so much respect for you girl
I just wanted your love, I didn't expect the world

You treat me like %#@! and you know it's true
Yet say you love me but won't change, I'm confused


Working this hard shouldn't be so easy
Call me [?] just so you can please me
This is the beginning, wheres my happy ending?

This is the beginning, I want my happy ending
I want my happy ending
I want my happy ending


If the book closes now, would I be happy with it?
Would I be sad if that chapter had to go and finish?

I ask myself the same question every single night:
Are you sure you want this rapping [?]
And I say I don't care if everything peaks here

Because my love for this has grown like each year
I don't really get long if labels aren't getting at me
Just as long as I'm smiling, and my ending's happy

This is the beginning, wheres my happy ending?

This is the beginning, I want my happy ending
I want my happy ending
I want my happy ending