I'm staring out into that vacuum again
From the back porch of my mind
The only thing that's alive

I'm all there is
And I start attacking my vodka
Stab the ice with my straw

My eyes have turned red as stop lights
You seem ready to walk
You know I will call you eventually

When I wanna talk
Till then you're invisible


Cause there's this switch that gets hit
And it all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks

Maybe the fifth or the sixth
I'm completely alone
At a table of friends

I feel nothing for them
I feel nothing!
Nothing!


Well I need a break from the city again
I think I'll ship myself back west

I got a friend there she says
"Hey anytime!"


Unless that offers expired
I have been less than frequent
She's under no obligation

To indulge every whim
And I'm so ungrateful
I take she gives and forgives

And I keep forgetting it

And each morning she wakes

With a dream to describe
Something lovely that bloomed
In her beautiful mind

I say I'll trade you one
For two nightmares of mine
I have some where I die

I have some where we all die

I'm thinking of quitting drinking again

I know I've said that a couple times
And I'm always changing my mind
Well I guess I am


But there's this burn in my stomach
And there's this pain in my side

And when I kneel at the toilet
And the morning's clean light
Pours in through the window

Sometimes I pray I don't die
I'm a !@#$ hypocrite


But the night rolls around
And it all starts making sense
There is no right way or wrong

Well you just have to live
And so I do what I do
And at least I exist

What could mean more than this?
What would mean more?
Mean more?


Oh oh oh oh