mado wo akete yoru wo suikomuguitar no tsuru wo furikaete giniro no yume wo tsumugu tohaiiro no kanashimi ga ito kuzu no you niashimoto ni tsumotteku furitsumotte yuku yohito wa hito wo hodo hodo ni ai su koto ga dekizu kunou ni uchi hishigareruwakeai hou ga wakaranai dakara ubai auarigatou de ippai ni %#@!ai no nigomen nasai bakari ga fuete yukunemurenai no wa nemuritai kara na no ka nawakatte moraenai no wa wakatte moraitai kara na no ka naomoi doori ni iku koto no hou ga sukunai hibi nidonna iro no kibou wo nagetsuketara ii?naze jibun dake na no ka to kanjiru koto mo jitsu wa jibun dake janai ttekotokizuita no sa kizutsuiteru no wa kimi mo sou de karera mo sou dewakaki habataki yo usube no tsubomi yo watashi mo tsuyoku ikite mimasukizutsukanai you ni sugosu koto ga itsu shikawatashi no ikiru mokuteki ni natte ima%#@!afutte mo nai ame ni obie kasa wo sasu kurai kowagari na jibun ga itesono jibun ni me wo somukemekki %#@!ate no pride wotaiyou ni tsukitsukete kagayaita furi wo %#@!eta n dashinjitsu wo mitometakunakutetoozaketa sono hito kakera wo sora ni nageta katachi no warui yuuki wosonna meiro no you na hibi wo owaraseru tamesukoshi kakkou no warui kono kakugo wo uta ni kometenukeochita hane yo utai satta hana yo watashi wa tsuyoku ikite imasukokoro wa ironna hyoujou wo motsu keredo itsu demo hohoemi wo wasurezunugutte mo nugutte mo afureru to iu no nara sono mama hashiri tsuzuketeyukutaorete mo taorete sono ai wo tsutaenasaianata wa watashi ni sou oshieta no deshouikiru koto sunawachihashiru koto tachidomaru koto kujikete wa mou dame datte omou kotosore wo dareka no sei ni suru koto kirei na kanashimi dake janai kotodoryoku mo shinaide monku wo iu kotoa%#@!a kara yaru tte itte yaranai kotonegai koto hitotsu ni shibotte yappa yaru kotodare ni demo ooki nari chiisa nari konnan ga ari nayanderu kotokattou %#@!ari kirawaretara dou shiyou tte tohou ni kuretariai su koto atte mo ai sareru koto wa naka naka nai kototsutaeru koto tsutawaranai koto umaku ikanai ga yaru shika nai koto